Lawyer who jumped from 8th floor with her baby left 13-page suicide note

NEW YORK – The 44 year-old lawyer who jumped from her 8th floor apartment with her baby left a 13-page suicide note. Cynthia Wachenheim commited suicide by jumping from her apartament located on the 8th floor with her 10-month-old baby, Keston Bacharach, strapped to her body. Hopefully the baby managed to get away with it just with a bruise and survived due to the cushion of Cynthia Wachenheim‘s body.

The reason of the suicide is Cynthia‘s sense of guilt after her baby fell two times and after some Internet reasearch she convinced herself that her baby was suffering from some neurological disorder, which doctors did not find in the baby.

This is what a Times source reported:

According to a law enforcement official who has seen the note, she wrote that her infant son, Keston Bacharach, had previously taken a few tumbles, including “two shameful incidents,” a fall from a Gymini play set [the Times is, throughout its article, bizarrely focused on brand names and Style Section asides, as though we might want to rush out and purchase the model of baby carrier into which Keston was strapped] onto the wood floor when she walked out of the room for five minutes, and off a bed. She blamed herself, and was convinced that those falls had led to a series of concussions and seizures that aggravated or contributed to maladies that would harm him for the rest of his life. Her friends, family members and pediatrician did not believe her, she wrote. But she noticed changes in the baby—changes that only a mother who spends all day with her child would notice. For instance, she wrote, her son had grown sleepier and cried more frequently. She wrote that she could not bear the thought that he might suffer because she had failed to protect him. She wrote that what she was about to do was “evil.”